Pernah tak rasa mcm nk gve up dgn hidup? Thats how i feel right now 😢 i keep asking myself why why why.. i life is so fucked up. I couldnt control my emotion. Im too overwhelmed. Theres a lot of things in my mind. And j broke down once i cant handle it. Letihnya mcm ni. Im afraid 😢 im too afraid of my future.. of what is going to happen for me.. im afraid 😢 i am too disappointed that my life didnt turn out like how i wanted it to be.. 

simply said, i could hardly accept what is happening in my life. And it hurts. I swear, if killing myself is not a sin and not hurtful, i would do it. Just to end this pain 😢 penat sgt.. 

if only i could turn back the time. But i cant.. siapalah aku nak mengubah takdir yg Allah dah tetapkan untuk.. i am just too weak and too ignorant to accept the qada and qadr 😢 

Please Allah, help me to overcome every bit of my pain.. im sorry for all of my sin that i have commit.. i cant bear this consequences 😢😞

Please.. 😢