Idk

Setiap kali balik johor, mesti aku rasa mcm lifeless sgt. Mungkin sbb sorg sorg kot. Org yg ada motivation yg tinggi je boleh adapt keadaan mcm ni. Unfortunately that person is not me. I spend time along in my room.. would rather sleep than doing anything. Now berat aku dah naik. From 44kg to 46kg. From 46kg to 47kg. And now semalam timbang dah naik 48.5kg. Mmg sebelum ni rasa mcm nak naikkan berat. Tp bila dah naik ni rasa takut pulak. Sbb berapa kali dah tgh tgh makan ke buat something ke tiba tiba dadah belah kiri sakit tau. Bila nk tarik nafas tak boleh habis sbb makin tarik nafas makin sakit. Takut sgt sbb kan skrg bnyak kes muda muda meninggal sakit jantung. Lagi takut bila aku tak jaga makan. Apa aku nk mkn aku main makan je.. kan ada org jaga sugar intake, calory intake semua. Sbb hritu join run ada health check, tekanan darah and gula okay je normal. 

Hopefully nothing bad is going tk happen. Bosannya kt sini.. lonely gila. 

My routine today, bangun pukul 9 pastu tido balik. Bagun dah kol 12 pastu main phone smpai pukul 1.30. Pastu masak brunch 😂 makan sambil tngok movie. Habis makan sambung tngok movie atas katil pulak sampailah pukul 5. Lepastu sambung scroll fb.. tu je lah life aku kt sini. Ws org pun aku tk reply. Rasa mcm malas nak bersosial. 

Mmg aku kdg da buat status dgn story fb, tp bila org reply aku malas nk layan. Kdg rasa mcm mmg nk share tp korg tngok je takyah reply. Tp bila org tk reply rasa mcm alaa 😂

Life is so much complicated. 

Not life, it’s me who complicate my own life.. idk. 

May Allah gave me a very strong motivation to go on with this life in Johor.